You are at least 20-21 years old (mature, man, lol), nostale will not return, take it for granted, most likely GameForge (the official distribution company for this game in Europe and America) has managed to shut down the server after all (just remember, time ago, GF claimed youtube videos related to vendetta, even striked some channels, that means that THEY KNOW were was the "PROBLEM")... Just resign yourself... You shouldn't get so attached to a private server, everyone knew that this was going to happen sooner or later, and the one who didn't, just didn't want to see... This threat is pointless (and yes, I was a nostale's player too...)